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update 020910 2300

2010-09-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

long long time din come here already.............. update my current info 1st, now stil working in the current company, confirmation if not got any exception, will be next week, salary review also this month mayb, haha, hope hard for it!!!! when u really hardworking to do all those hard work, u really will hope got reward!!! tis is the 1st thought of it.... i believe my colleagues wont hv tis site, and i also believe those have this site wont know my manager, and i believe those i duno one wont hv interesting wat i wan to say bad about my manager!!!!!! haha, so confident!!!! shhhhhhhhhhhh, lets make it as secret..... i dun like my manager actually, but i luv my team member and my line manager which is the assistant manager, haha, not tat kind of luv, dun think too much..... when u really get something complement, u really will feel happy from ur heart!!!! i know u all will have that feeling also....... my line manager: "not enuf 6months, u r not a confirm staff yet, but u dun gv me a feeling like new staff, like work long time already, i wont feel anxious when u r handling those complicated things".......... haha, i will remember this quote always!!!! feel like so shok!!!! haha....... here i wan to say to my line manager, u r the best line manager in the world!!!! u r better than Ntimes than last time tat one!!!!! lolzzzzz, my manager, haizzzzz, duno y, i feel like when comparing with other new staff in the department, i think he dun like me the most, mayb im not tat gud looking enuf, haha, nvm, i will prove him he is wrong, juz wan to say to him, u wait n c la!!!!!!!!! n my team member, always, ppl got the selfish mode in their own body, but i m fortunately enuf, their selfishness is still ok for me, haha, mayb i not yet discover the truth!!!!! lolzzzz tats my work!!!!!

and for my life except from work, i get serious back pain, mayb sit too long n not in the correct position, so i start to change tis few days of my seating position, hope it will get well n better..... i will have core leave soon, core leave= long leave, 7 days!!!!!!! hmmmmnnnnn, still thinking where to go on hari raya with my family, one day trip, still wondering can go where.......... and others days, still planning.... and i wan to say, i will be broke soon!!!!! last month bought XM5800, not dare to let my parents know tat..... i think they not yet discover yet..... and this month, SALES!!!!!!!!! eat up all my money, tat day one hr buy two jeans, coz its 70% discount ma, haha, aunty is like tat, pls consider, haha....... and i realised, now oni early os the month, and i spent almost half month of my salary, duno how to spent for the holiday, haizzzzzzzz. ..... now everyday think of how to save money, is it really wan to eat bread n water oni???? haha, but im tiger, i wish to eat meat one......... hehe

and comes here my thoughts after worked for one yr!!!!!

"ur thought will be changing when times going on"<----- quote by yeecui^^

不会有第二次

2010-08-09T22:18:00.001+08:00

学习错误，是我要学的

我会吸取教训，

不会再给你有第二次机会

让我委屈，

让我掉泪

The Start

2010-08-08T21:13:00.002+08:00

end of something

start of something

always hard to accept while in the beginning

but i will try

no matter wat it is

juz get bec to the origin

n start over again

all i nid is strength n brave

1st time accident

2010-07-26T20:50:00.002+08:00

Date: 27-Jul 2010

Time: 0700

Venue: SILK highway

Content:

on my way to work, i met an car accident, a black car stop in front the lane there coz crash, automatically, i try to "eat" to the lane bside, since duno y so many cars, hv to wait long time, finally, not i manage to get to tat lane, is i get bump by a noob car from bhind, haiz, wat kind of luck i got it today?? then i move my car in front of the black car, the noob car again, bump the black car... i wonder if the driver sot jor???? already bump once n she wan to make it to two???? those "trailer" man, i duno is it correct, r those when got car accident, they got one big lorry to help u carry the car go to workshop... they reach in 5 min, so fast!!!!! said this n tat la, but i not really hear wat they r talking, they juz said, help me claim the noob car insurance, n report police, n the car let them service, then done, oklo, since they r "willing" to "help", then i oso willing to cooperate la, haha... since my or@njee can walk himself, then i drive him follow those trailerman.... 1st, go to police station 1st, report to the officer, then go meet the sarjan, then wait the trailerman bring me to workshop, wait my dad come fetch me, wait us to check the old car= dinosaur 2, tats his name, haha, then come bec to equine again.... nid few days to c my or@njee again, duno he there ok onot??? haizz, start miss him d........ feel so sorry to him.....

anual dinner

2010-07-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

ytd, my company anual dinner, grand one, klcc convention center, hall 1 n 2, wow, actually i m excited, but reach there wait here n there, make me tired d........ around 7pm v start to move in, then v hv our dinner, n some entertainment, fb got my photo, haha.... im sorry so short n so noob tis post, but i really moody now, cant write properly...... sorry all............

long long long time~~~

2010-07-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

long time din write blog here, realised tat i missed things so much here, even my fren updated their blog, their news i oso duno... haha, sori la bro n sis....... i not purposely geh...... recently my time really not enuf, coz many things mixed up together.... work, game, n world cup!!! but my italy go bec home liao, now juz for netherland oni~~~~ working is just tired, after work really lazy like pig, dun wan go anywhere, juz lay on the luvly bed n pass the nite like tat, haha.... sometime even very lazy go to work oso cant ponteng.... but it used to when last time in U, no wonder ppl say enjoy ur sch life enuf b4 u working, yuo!!!! tats ablsolutely right!!!!!! haha, tats all for here, wish sunday!!! wil b very orange ooooooooo~~~~~

mayday concert

2010-06-06T20:35:00.002+08:00

1st time, i go for concert

1st time, i in the rock zone of the concert

1st time, i saw mayday so near

n 1st time, i hear to mayday song not with my big black or radio

its 5th june

i with my luvly or@njee n fetch one of my fren, go to bukit jalil

sunny day=hot day, v reach there around 430, start to queue up around 5pm, erm, y v wan queue up leh?? coz many ppl queue up oso la, haha, follow the crowd, n saw my big head fren there, Fish, then me n fren while waiting her sis, v join fish in the middle of the big crowd, suddenly, another fren, kangzhen, got free ticket of rm328!!! wao, really big temptation, but finally v decided to stay in rock zone, (fyi:rock zone:rm268, disc=229, student=215, =='').... around 7pm lo, v run into the zone, haha, RUN!!! so excited!!!! so gan zheong oso, duno how was it, v all together 8 ppl stay at the behind of the zone, coz if v turn, v manage to shake hand with mayday if they come to shake with us, hehe..... waiting waiting n waiting til 8pm, finally, its the time!!!!! but the 1st opening guest is the star from 8tv, haiz, i hv bad comment for them, better dun spoil up here, hehe, then the next is a malay guy(i think la), Ikhua(i think again), sing beyond song, ok oso, got 50% similar to MJ, haha, nice look oso la, better than the 1st guest, the 3rd one, Ding Dang=Dolla, nice songs from her.... then then then then then......... MAYDAY!!!! wah, juz marvelous!! wat oso the best!!!!! 阿信，怪兽，石头，马莎，冠佑，超强的组合！！！！i can c all them in front front front except masa, coz he din come out, haha.... juz high n rock!!!! a gud birthday celebration for tis yr!!!! hehe

finally, blogging

2010-05-24T20:54:00.002+08:00

din write anything since last time change the template, but i changed it today oso, haha, juz feel the picture very cute....

y i cant log in to my blog??? i m thinking the problem from ytd til today, coz it dun hv the word login in the page, anyone know how n pls left a comment here, today, i login from others ppl blog then fortunately saw up right hand site there got the dashboard!!! pheww~~~ haha, i succeed!!! cheers!!!!!!!

a lot of things happened when i cant blogging, now can already, but forgot almost all, haizzzz

write today ba, today quite a busy day, not quite, is really a busy day, i nid extra an hour to finish my work, tis make me totally exhausted...... i m tired, very tired, sumore is monday!!! moody + moody + moody= totally moody!!! haha, nvm, tmr nite hv my salary luuuuuuuuu, haha, tats make totally moody-mooday= ok ok moody, haha.......

06-May-2010

2010-05-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

rmb this weekend is mother's day, but i juz left my anger on my mum, such a bad daughter...

actually i m quite gud mood today, but now really down.... juznow i bec from work, stil thinking buy a secret recipe cake go bec home to celebrate mother's day, n i oso wil guess my mum wil phone me, coz today is thursday, tmr is friday, friday i used to bec hometown every weekend, n my mum wil phone me tel me wat she plan to cook for dinner on friday, but today, it seems like duno wat going wrong on me, pick up her phone call, she same as usual, talk talk talk lo, n i heard lo, juz my cousin things n my brother's things affect me, haizzzz, write here so long, juz it really affect my mood, n i lost my patient, i told my mum, can u pls dun care so so so much on others things, u not enuf things to think of??? coz she everyday oso think too much liao, this is in my opinion la, since i never be other's mum, so i cant really feel tat feeling(tats my mum said), mayb its right oso, but for the moment, i cant patient liao, i try to be more patient, but failed, mayb i din tried hard enuf, i juz left out my anger, i juz ask my mum, can u pls dun think n care too much tat u nid no to? can u pls gv me some time to get rid of all those things???????? n after tat i juz straight bye to my mum without waiting her to say bye... tats my false, i shuldnt b like tat, haizzzzzzzzzzzz, i hv to think more 2 seconds, i shuld hv to be patient for 2 more minutes.... it makes me dun wish to go bec hometown tis weekend d, but i hv to, tats always things happen around, tat i hv to do, i shuld do, n i must to do..........

gaming world

2010-05-04T21:02:00.002+08:00

welcome bec to gaming world, yeecui!!!

haha, recently i m busy, not oni for work, actually work oni tired, make me more busy one is game game, yup, i play online game again, tats y so seldom come here d, sorry all......

recently working so far so gud, things are quite familiar now, but stil need improvement, haha, sound like comment from line manager... home got something happen, no doubt, i can escape from it, except make it done well well..... now i everyday sleep early wake up early, quite healthy life style, but i open eyes for aroun 17 hrs, i face comp nearly 15 hrs... omg, someone told me cant be like tat, but i cant control la, working computer, gaming laptop, oni entertainment at seri kembangan is gaming oni, 1st thing after work is fly car car, buy dinner, then game game, hehe, is it a failure life of me? i think 50-50 gua, haha

realized

2010-04-20T20:03:00.002+08:00

realized tat i m an adult d

realized tat i m not a child anymore

realized tat adult hv to cope of many things

realized tat i hv to bear of many changes

realized tat i hv the responsibilities to somethings

realized tat my parents ard gone old

realized tat i hv to protect them

realized tat i hv to protect my family

realized tat i hv long way to go

永远达不了的梦

2010-04-11T02:09:00.002+08:00

我的梦

有很多

白日梦，噩梦，快乐的梦，失落的梦……

但我要讲的都不是这些

梦想，你有吗

我有

而且有很多

我是贪心的

我的梦

有些实际的，有些幻想的

有些达不到，有些已经达到了，而有些也一步一步地朝着它迈进

我知道我的能力

我知道环境的局限

我也知道现实是残酷的

有人说过人因梦想而伟大

我只觉得

我因梦想而实际

努力的活着

努力的实践

努力的知足

周末

2010-03-28T11:37:00.002+08:00

周末最好的享受，就是乖乖的呆在家里，懒洋洋的度过，哈哈，这也许是上班族的一点期望，吃得饱，睡得好，生活真美妙！！！

19-03-10

2010-03-19T22:52:00.005+08:00

today many things to write, let me sum out:

1.) i juz finish my 2nd week in new company, hv learn quite a lot of things, colleague said me learn 7788 d, but i feel that i stil got a little distance to all those things, haha, i scare i cant make it, many works to do, quite busy, but busy got advantage la, time wil fly faster than rocket!!! lol... but incident wil always occur.... like today, i nearly did wrong, but then stil can save back, haizzz, i juz very scare leh............ swt a lot tat time, haizzzzz, suddenly feel tat pressure is an elephant, dragging it along federal highway, haha, (poor description, i know), n i cant stop thinking if i m suitable for this kind of job, but at last, i cont my busy work n forgot those thoughts after 5min.... i m very careful d, but stil done wrong, really quite hurt lo, fairly said...... but now i m ok d, wil fight on monday again....

2.) today i suppose very happy one, coz of friday, n even small things wil make me happy for the whole day, such as listening to myfm, hear them said funny things, then the whole day wil b gud for me, actually happy moment is so easy oni, enjoy the simple life, but small things oso wil affect the simple happy life.... after work, i rec a news, make me quite wordless, so i post a note on fb there, few days ago, i think i can forgv her one, n go bec normal, but after today incident, i realize tat she is ntg to me d, i dun hv anger or sad or happiness on her d, same as last time f5 doraemon, so wishing her, next time when her things, i juz wil smile n ignore, sometime mayb wil recal bec the sweetest memory v hv to her, but wont affect too much....

3.) i found my room in seri kembangan d, wil move in on april, so wil plan nite activity soon, haha...... there dun hv water heater la, juz bath with cold water.... gekgekkegkegkekgke in the morning...

4.) today is sleeping day, haha, according to myfm la, hope everyone sleep well all the time, can sleep well is one of the most important small matter in our life^^

1st day real to work

2010-03-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

today getting to my floor d, processing floor, again, no storage device is allowed n no hp, today i din hv locker, so bring along my bag bag into the floor, but tmr i hv locker luuu, T 196, my locker number, can put all my things there tmr, hehe...

i m unit trust department, as i said earlier, support for hk branch, v got three dep support for hk unit trust, i m in dealing dep, got settlement dep n registration dep, every dep responsible for different things, but got related oso la, stil not yet discover wats the relationship..

since i m new, n everything needs password n id, n the process things oso different, so nid the IT dep to create a series of highly confidential password for me, haha, (nice sentence), all together hv 7 type of things nid password, so my small small brain hv to rmb all...

lunch with colleague, they said i m quiet, haha, they din c my real evil face yet, i m shy n quiet bcoz not yet close with them, wait n c yo..

saw them work quite ok one, but small mistake wil leads to big lost, so hv to be very accurate n careful, they al working more than one yrs jor, so the movement is very fast til i cant rmb wat is wat n how is how.... learning learning learning...

summary of 2 days induction

2010-03-06T12:21:00.003+08:00

thursday, 4.3.10, was my 1st day to hsbc electronic data processing (m), haha i think the name is like tat gua... short form is hdpm la, mainly do processing for the transaction for the bank..

today was ike wat ppl said, orientation, around 35 ppl gua... dvide by two group, two of the trainer cuming to bring us watch around the floor... v r not allowed to bring our hp to the floor since all the things is p&c, the company scare v wil take customer details n do somthing fraud, tats according the trainer la... the whole 1st day said the company rules, company benefit, n open acc for us, manage all the things tat, at the end of the day, i finally c my assistant manager, bring me go around to watch where our department locate, n briefly tel something wat they do: incharge os hk unit trust, support for hk bank, then end my 1st day...

friday, 5.3.10, 2nd day, today more on theory, listening to history, rules again, n do some online module... at the end of the day, each of us i given a gift, a cup n two pens, according to trainer again, coz everyone got a cup, but u dun hv, so pity... haha

erm.... hv to said, i m very like the environment of the company, everything is there, got own cafe, eat oso quite cheap compared to outside, drinking machine free, can go to hv coffee non-stop, haha, got entertainment zone oso, can fb, can do ur own things, smoking zone oso, haha

juz sometime wil nervous, duno how the actual working is how, n cant bring hp with ourself, hv to put in the locker, but lunch time can bring along to lunch la, carpark is ok, no worries at all!!! hehe

comp rules got strict n no strict la, everyone v wan to access to other door, hv to tag lo.. i heard trainer said got many activities, n oni monday is formal day, others day oso can wear casual, hehe, then i no nid susah payah go think wat to wear for the next day soon, save money to buy other things...

erm.... wan to find room there to live lo, everyday travel, wil very xian de... n hv to pa tol oso, n petrol price wan to rise up soon, haizzz, poor lo....

hope next week a gud weeks for me, haha, but tired, wan to finish module, n wan to work, wan to learn, god bless me for everything is going smooth smooth...

new life wil begin soon...

2010-03-01T12:58:00.002+08:00

27th, my last day working in TLSB, a rubber company... soon, i wil get to another company to work soon, a new life, new environment, new colleagues... hv to suit myself for all the new stuffs, but i think it wont be a problem for me.. every1 wishing me gud lucks for changing environment, me oso hoping tat wil bring luck for me.. cant really describe the new life oso, coz not yet try it out, but it wil b great i think, haha.... tmr is very beautiful!!!!

129 days

2010-02-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

goodbye for everything in these 129 days..

老虎年

2010-02-11T18:50:00.002+08:00

新年就来了，之前好像还没有感觉什么，但是今天却觉得它真的很近了，两天，很快过去，我一直拖着一些东西，但发觉原来没有时间再拖了。

今年我没有做我自己的饼干，原因是没时间，或者说太懒了，哈哈，可能做工了吧，回到家就累了，不想动了。

今年，我踏入人生的社会，接触更多的人，得到了宝贵的经验，还有大大小小的事，让我成长了很多，SHE的不想长大，曾经是我所向往的，但现在我却觉得，现在的我有责任，有义务，去做每一件事，去担戴，去扛，纵使也许会任性，耍脾气，但是冷静过后，还是得完成，还是得负责。但是内心深处，还是从前的我，保留自己的那一块，把不同的碎片黏在一块，让它更完美。

今年，我突然有憧憬，想要真实的希望，会实现的希望，希望我的希望会实现……

这几天，我的网络故障，面子书不是上不了，就是我上到一半睡着了，错过了许多朋友的分享，错过了对许多朋友的祝福，真诚的抱歉，我不是故意的，呵呵呵……也发觉，原来我很需要网络，不能没有你，哈哈哈

要祝福所有人都平安，这是最重要的，回家乡，驾车小心点，走在路上也要小心点，哈哈，健康的身体啊，重要，病从口入，祸从口出，厉害，华语造诣还不错，还有，珍惜你仅有的…………

interchange of feb'10 n mac'10

2010-02-08T21:36:00.002+08:00

there wil b a history record in my life diary soon, i m going to leave the current company soon n step to another company.. gud news or bad news??? haha, depends, not yet suit the new environment yet, cant conclude so soon.... but its the physical environment i m looking for, hope it suit my mental environment oso....

talking to my current company, actually its not no gud, juz saturday got work lo, everyday wake up on saturday morning n need to work, tats wil make me moody a bit.... n public holiday, when others ppl no nid work n i nid to go to work, so so few car on the road, tats feeling really bad.... ppls in company treat me very well, colleagues r all gud to me, so far not yet get scold from ppl lo....... juz sometime really got ppl like kisiao, make me angry oni, haha..... boss treat me gud as well, got gv bonus, got increment, oklo compared to others, if next time really unemployed juz go bec lo, tats boss promise, haha, mark his word.....

talking to my future company, duno where to stay, not yet start to find, mayb stay at home, cyber quite far, or not far oso..... haizzz, really no idea wat to choose, left the accommodation issue aside.. dun hv anything yet to my future company, i mean wat i wish to n wat i hv to achive wats the company wish to, so far juz hv the thought tat going inside there n learn lo n work, tats the thinking, haha.... new yr hope, wish new company wil bring me new kind of vision, new things yet to discover!!!1

cny is cuming soon!!!! at the corner jor, but i hv did ntg yet, tis yr really not enuf time, many things comes together, juz bought one shirt for myself oni, tis yr quite a busy yr, coz working d, chu4 wan to start work already, haizzz, wat to do? working life is like tat.... but i wil find times to play oso, hehe...... new yr new hope, sumore tis yr is tiger yr, erm........... (wishing)(wishing)(wishing)

wish all the ppl hv a very happy tiger yr!!!

outing on 31/01/10

2010-01-31T18:29:00.000+08:00

today sunday, also sunny day, haha, throw out all the problem n troublesome things for one day, i go out with my colleagues, go to tenji, hehe, the place i dream for so long...... prices is another reason, the promotion!!! haha, rm 49.90++ per pax for lunch, add up all the things wil cost not exceed rm70, ok oso, work so hard hv to b enjoy a bit.........

1020am - depart from seremban

1115am - reach our destination, v r lost there, coz i duno tenji is there, i hv been there once oni, so when i wan to pick up the phone to call help from my bro, n i saw TENJI, phew, i found it, easy place, coz there juz 5min from my bro house, haha, n i juz realise the view from there can saw my bro condo...

1130am - v start to follow the long queue, pay while enter, quite systematic oso....

1145am - our seat is outdoor, but not hot oso, n the coconut is juz bside, 1st of all, grabs the coconut 1st.. hehe.... then go a tour of food!!!! sashimi, sushi, tempura, oden, steamboat, lamb, soft shell crabs, cocktails, fruit juice, teas, tako, ice cream, cakes.... fill up my stomach slowly... with the experiences eating buffet, i take my time for all things, all things juz take few, hehe, clever?? not really, at the end, i cant try out all the things there oso, specially the western food part, juz small touch, the ice cream, i juz take all the flavour, each flavour juz one spoon...

0330pm - v depart from tenji, coz really cant add in more food into our stomach d, i got the feeling of vomiting out the food in the toilet, but din do that, haha...

overall, i think shogun is much better than tenji, duno leh, my favourite things no here, i saw ppl take tempura prawn, but i cant c where is it, handroll dun hv, unagi dun hv, so i hv decided, wil go to shogun soon!!!!!^^

my favourite

2010-01-16T17:33:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCV8kD068mE&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vIi2aeYQ3dA&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iGGV4OMUnLg&feature=related

always can easily smoothen my heart when i m not in the mood.........

我需要空气

2010-01-10T19:24:00.002+08:00

6天了，我没有好好的睡过，压力压得我喘不过气来，烦恼的东西又不能说，明天，我希望一切都结束，明天的天空会蓝蓝的吗？

morning new year

2010-01-01T11:43:00.002+08:00

5min to go to hte noon of new yr

12hr+ to go to end of the 1st day of new yr

30days to go to the end of 1st month of new yr

12 months to go to end of new yr

1st day of the new yr, but mention about the end of the yr

wat a contradict!!

时间飞逝

2009-12-29T22:28:00.003+08:00

很快就迎来2010年了，又要跟2009年说再见，去年这个时候，我还刚踏入大学最后一个学期，等着去倒数的日子，晃晃就是一年，如今回首过去，只能用想当年想当年来形容了。原来真的年纪大了，时间真的快到只有瞬间，但是在这一眼瞬间，却发生了不少事情，重要如我踏入社会，进入人生的大学，比起以前读书的时候，又别有一番滋味。所有的事情不能尽我们的如意，也不一定会依照我们所想象的来走，火车偶尔也会出轨，更何况人生不能与之评论。时间不等人，人生短的很，也许明天就跟世界告别了，所以就要珍惜多一点点，既然有快乐与不快乐，就学习在悲伤中寻找快乐吧，也许你会得到更多……

christmas 09

2009-12-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

flying to kl one utama today, although can predict tat today is flood of ppl, but din stop me from going there, hehe.... BBQ PLAZA!!!! the main reason is for tat... haha, mayb i m sot sot de, but i miss it long time d........ wat christmas dinner oso not important, tis one oni tat i wan!!! haha, going for movie, bcoz there my favorite cinema, big n beautiful, but the movie is not tat nice.........

these few days sleep quite late, not enuf sleep oso, MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS, hope everyone have fun, totally turn to holiday mood!! but oso hv to take care of the health!!!^^

waiting

2009-12-03T23:35:00.003+08:00

waiting for the eyes to open in the morning

waiting for the internet line better in the office

waiting the decision from boss

waiting banker confirmation

waiting marketing confirmation

waiting report from overseas

waiting photostat machine to be in gud condition

waiting fax machine to fax things

waiting reply from question

waiting waiting waiting...................

how many times i waste for waiting?

i wish to know, n can u count it??

我需要药

2009-11-29T13:58:00.002+08:00

头疼，因为想很多

心疼，因为很痛

痛到麻木了

我需要药

医生快来救我………………

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love

2009-11-25T21:24:00.001+08:00

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love

if i had to live my life without you near me

the days would all be empty

the nights would seem so long

with you i see forever oh so clearly

i might have been in love before

but it never felt this strong

our dreams are young and we both know

they'll take us where we want to go

hold me now touch me now

i don't want to live without you

nothing's gonna change my love you for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

the world may chang my whole life throug but

nothing's gonna chang my love for you

if the road ahead is not so easy

our love will lead a way for us

like a guiding star

i'll be there for you if you should need me

you don't have change a thing

i love you just the way you are

so come with me and share the view

i'll help you see forever too

hold me now touch me now

i don't want to live without you

nothing's gonna change my love you for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

the world may chang my whole life throug but

nothing's gonna chang my love for you

nothing's gonna change my love you for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

the world may chang my whole life throug but

nothing's gonna chang my love for you

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you oughta know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i never ask for more than your love

luv this song so much, khalil sing nice

outing on 21/11/09

2009-11-22T23:53:00.004+08:00

saturday, go to sunway with frens!!!

1st step : after work half day at office, based on my two yrs memories ago, i drive my or@njee, fly to senawang, to pick chawmei, fortunately stil there, but stil one street away from her house, haha, phone is always a gud way to get the solution!!!

2nd step : used up one hr to fly to kl, go bec to 260, my previous pj house, when v reach, omg, c someone waiting for us at the door there, is tat v r too famous??? haha, answer preview immediately, waihoong, my ex-hmate, actually waiting for his fren to go out for movie, not waiting our arriving lo, haizzz

3rd step : rest a while at 260, straight go find bearbear at Ken III, while waiting her, saw ayi, bearbear's hmate outside at the guard house there packing things, i thought i eye blur blur, but chawmei say is him wo.... but v oso scare c the worng ppl liao, coz v r in the gal, then v saw lenglui, bearbear, come out from form her house

4th step : v drive to sunway pyramid, since i m hungry, then v fast fast find a place to eat, finally, found gasoline, bear n chawmei totally bcum mad d, coz they say the restaurant very well-known, but can found here, its a fade, haha, finally v get into there to hv our lunch...

remark : gasoline, the theme restaurant, quite famous, but sorry, i duno it, haha, sunway theme is pirates, everywhere can saw the pirates painting, n the environment oso gud, got time can go to hv a try

5th step : start our gaigai, starting to buy things, siewai n shiauying joining us later, v flipping around lo, around 630pm like tat v leave sunway pyramid

6th step : murni!!! go there to hv our dinner, miss the things there, but my stomach dun hv enuf space to fill all the food i like to eat, juz wait for next time

7th step : going to sy house, wow, kenIII really a nice place to stay, like the environment very much, house there meet ayi, confirm our eyesight is gud!!! hehe

8th step : actually plan to go to sing k, due to some non-technical problem, cancel d, haha..... juz at 260, did the things tat i normally done when i m there.... think of watching football with chyichyi n yangyang, but i m too tired d, haha, put them planes d....

9th step : next morning, go to "yi hong yuan" to hv breakfast with sy, then go bec to seremban d.....

thx for them, gving a gud saturday to me, haha, i miss u all...

不平凡的一天

2009-11-07T15:41:00.002+08:00

星期六，比平常不一样，今天很有心情想做工，做工也都很快乐，昨天的念头差不多抛弃到光光，但是理智还是存在的，快乐的心情上班，老板今天傻傻的，又跟我开玩笑，哈哈，放工还跟他说再见，今天学会用公司的打字机，还不错，不会想象中的难，一玩就玩上瘾了，呵呵…… 今天的我很勤劳，做了一大堆工作，在脑袋的一部分，想着的却是乘我还在这公司，尽量做些东西留给他们，这想法会不会很不好呢？还没有找到新的工作，也不是急着走，只是有这样的想法……现在在哥哥的店，昨天还和他吵架，但是今天我竟然能忍住我的气，跟他好好的谈，不知怎么了，但是就知道很不一样就对了……

时间

2009-11-02T21:16:00.003+08:00

虽然每天都很累，但是觉得每天都没有白过，纵使做工累倒不能有多余的力气去做什么大事，也没有什么大事等着我，放工就用仅有的力气，去上网聊天，去找些乐子，尽量让我的生活不要在沉闷的工作度过，尽量让我的每一天，除了工作，还可以做很多事。现在时间越来越不够用，周末的时间更是满满的，我会努力变出更多的时间，如果每天给我多一两个小时，那该有多好啊

6th person

2009-10-28T19:08:00.001+08:00

6th person is very important d, for my ranking la... coz 1st 5 always reserved d, n mayb next time will b 7th, coz i forgot told another vip, haha.... next time 7th la.... or mayb long time later wil be the 1st one........

outing on 24/10/09

2009-10-25T09:11:00.002+08:00

last week, fren plan to go climb hills, so 24th is the day, ytd too tired d, then oni write today....

friday nite, after work, v start our gathering!! yoyo, me, kahchun, liwei, aiwen n kangming, 5ppl in my small small or@njee, go to semenyih to dinner with yi hong n chewgeng, haha, although i know tat place, but stil lost, do u got head b4 got one petrol station named TEGUH?? haha, v lost there but finally stil can find the restaurant... the food is cheaper than i expect, nice oso, haha...

after that, v go to my small small house, two rooms for all 7 ppl... cards is important for the gambler, means important for us oso, haha..... play play play, play til 2am, kangming, next time pls cut ur finger nails!!!! my hand ard get hurt jor.... i wan faint d.... the day b4 i oni sleep 4 hrs, but now oni got 2hrs for me to sleep... tired tired tired... although exhausted, but i stil wake up on time, 4am!!!!!!!!!! to prepare breakfast for them, hehe... v reach our venue on 545am, n start to climb the hil, BROGA HILL... v meet yeezhong, kahyee, gwanhwa, weifu n his 4 gals(haha, shuld i say tat? xD) i think my excitement fight win my sleepyness, hoho, around 640am, v reach our 1st peak!!! wow, really nice, worth to change my switch my sweat for the scene, hehe..... then after rest for a while, v go for another two, there totally got three peak, 1st one sure quite hard a bit, coz walk in darkness, n long time din exercise oso, very xinku... hehe.... but my 5yrs girlguide got use one, haha..... after rest n take photo, v go down le, or rolled down, haha... reach footside of the hill ard 845am.... due to kangming small accident, v hv to go bec my house earlier n throw chewgeng them bhind... reach my house, after bath n eat, all like pig d.... sleep here n there.... around 1pm, v go for our kajang satay, yoyo, din eat it since i am in primary sch... but change a lot... haha, weifu n his 4 gals go bec earlier coz not free n sick d, hope his fren will b fine, pity lo.. juz hv small cut in hand n leg oni, nice nice, i think if i go climb every week, really keep fit fit lo....lolzzzzz

my sleepy time is from 10pm til today 730am, really healthy life...

n today, hapee birthday to chyichyi.....^^

17th Oct 2009

2009-10-18T02:19:00.002+08:00

a memorable day for me, hope i can rmb it nicely..

紧张

2009-10-17T07:13:00.004+08:00

紧张了一整天，到头来也是还好，也许是我想太多，变成空紧张了……但是难免会阿，紧张的过程，细胞都死了一堆，还好工作分散了注意力，没有时间去紧张，想这么多，不然细胞死光光了，哈哈哈

10.10.01

2009-10-11T08:34:00.002+08:00

today, as usual, a busy day, but meaningful, my 10/10 life start at 610am n end at 3am... since my secretary so gud mood, she record the schedule n pass to me to let me post here, thx to her, ms sun.......^^

610am-wake up from sweet dream, going to work, today mood quite gud, simply say sumthing to parents then write or@njee go out to work d

745am-reach sbn, promised to hv breakfast with colleague, the reason is farewell for the frens who r leaving the company, n hear the gossip(hahaha, so 8)

852am- reach company, since late, all hv to add more 22 min to replace it, start the working machine..

1000am- malay colleagues hving feast at company, eat together, the whole company eat the dishes, quite nice, used half hr, then cont working (yummy yummy)

0100pm- today not much work, everything prepared d, start to wait the time passing.....

0125pm- finish work d!!! mood in super green ( super gud), going to next station again, bro shop, start work again (like cow)

0500pm- going to midvaley with ktm, wan buy things, since lazy to drive or@njee, then ktm lo, midvaley oso near near oni..... duno where come out the ppl, keep on talking to me, haizzz, i m tired til bone oso can crack d, no mood to hear wat he is talking, n ask phone oso, really wordless....(ktm @%$##@!)

0930pm- waiting ktm, many ppl, sure bcum sardines

1000pm- ktm reached, waiting to go b sbn, but really tired til faint, one n 15 mins journey take more half hr, duno wat the ktm doing, v stop at few 100m pass nilai station, frozen there d.... ktm aircond superb cold when few ppl in it, all ppl in the train no more patient d, duno wat happen to it oso, haizzz, juz wait oni...time pass n hp battery left 2% oni, cham lo, later disconnect fromt he world....

1145pm- finally reach sbn, going to next station, tarot cafe, meet fren yamcha there

0200am- yamcha finish, go b bro shop to sleep, start a new day again

last day of september..

2009-09-30T21:49:00.003+08:00

long time din cum here blog d, stil tat sentence oso, no time......

haizzz, these few days really work like dog, tired, ot ot ot, work load cant finish, n then stil meet those who luv to shout n scream, juz duno y.... is there, v human, who wil always think tat our work more important than others??? erm.... yea, i think so, coz i think i m this kind of ppl... when someone told do tis n tat, n at the same time i doing my work, then i wil use my brain to differentiate which is more important, normally brain wil send impulse to my system there to tel me the reulst, n the result always show tats our own things is more important than others, so v always do our things 1st...

i can understand, i can do for it late a bit oni, but still, wil get blamed here n there...

wat oso not right, left isn't right, n right oso not seem is correct...

so wat to choose, haizzzz, the road is diverging, but yet it wil meet together in t future time, future~~~~~~~~~

family tr!p

2009-09-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

raya break, means holiday for me n my family, haha.... long time din go out d, last yr oso raya break, go genting with my family, tis time wan wait raya oso, then bro shop juz can close for few days, actually wan plan to go cameron, but cant book the room, wan go spore, but i dun hv passport, haizzz, go malacca lo, near a bit, hehe...

sunday morning, v all six ppl, two cars, go breakfast, dim sum, i pay the bill, then v go straight to mlc le.... v reach there around 11am d, then find parking at jongker street(chawmei say the road name is like tis), then v go flipping around there, go take photo, n go c around lo, then v queue up for the chicken rice, qait around 40mins gua, then our turn to eat lunch, 粒粒鸡饭, taste ntg special, juz like tat oni, haha... then v go to climb the hills, a famosa, oklo, coz had gone there b4, then feel not much different, but quite many ppl there.... then v go ride the boat, or mayb i can say, ferry?? haha, i oso duno the different, juz get in,45 mins ride, bring us to c the scene, really nice... after there v go hv some dessert, go buy things, then go to eat "lok lok", there, hv to queue oso, v reach the shop there around 4.45pm, but ard many ppl queue up there, haizzzz, wat can v do? juz wait lo, after one hr, our turn to eat d!!! haha, quite nice oso, but juz eat very fast n pay very fast, coz bhind still got a lot of ppl waiting... then v go to shop at jongker street, there ppl flooding, duno where the ppl pop out, haha.... juz watch around lo, like nite market oni, ntg special oso, juz many things to eat l, but i ard full til wan vomit d, so food no attraction to me le^^...... after that, v leave there n go for food massage, after whole day walking, gud ending with tis, relax n watching manu vs manc, wow, really excited!!! owen that goal nearly make me scream d, haha.... paiseh lo^^, after tat bec home lo, reach home around 1am, then settle down straight faint on my bed, haha.... photo?? upload later ba....

9-11, '09

2009-09-11T21:40:00.002+08:00

1st, prays for those lost their life in the incident, hope they r fine

2nd, bapi birthday to my game partner, yang, hehe, realised when saw his msn

3rd, pray for my or@nji, today nearly crash him,

4th, hope my dasao grandma will hv a peace life in other world

5th, hope i can hv more energy to do more things

6th, always need more sleep time in the morning

7th, reserve when needed..

31st Aug '09

2009-08-31T00:43:00.003+08:00

merdeka day= independent day= public holiday, but not a holiday for me..... since bro shop got open half day for tmr, i hv to go to help him..... haizzzz really a pity life...

still rmb last yr merdeka days, i hv to work oso.... work at shogun last time, really many ppl, busy till faint, erm, tis yr.. mostly same gua.... haha

now i am mad in working, everyday oso work, i duno where my limit will go, haizzz, duno wan hv tis kind of life till when, juz know tmr is a new day of life begin, hv to busy oso, sometime i wan sleep gud gud oso cant, wan sleep late a bit oso no time, nite life oso important for me, gaming is a must, so everyday i hv to find time to rest..... everyday facing monitor n fall asleep.... everyday driving car will think y i wan repeat my life like tat, but everytime i oso fail to find an idea to escape from tis kind of life... sometimes will think too further, fortunately for the radio, myfm, really glad to hv it, will bring hapiness to me..

你不是真正的快乐, mayday song, really mean deep to me, now my life really match tis song, got many picture whenever the song is played..... then the road in front is blur~~~~~~

waiting for the time cuming, waiting for the chance cuming, i m not tat one who is great tat catching the opportunity, i m not tat desire, i need a reason to fight with, i m waiting the reason, i m discover the reason.......

tmr, i wil attend interview in kl oso, i din apply leave, but wil ask for emergency leave, now still thinking the reason for the leave, haizzz, lie in my current company need many energy, its true tat u need 10 lieas to cover one lie, n the lies will never end.

talk os my current company, juz scare scare, office politic, aunty world, mark my word, "aunty", a simple name but very dangerous, news from tis department can spread to whole office in one morning, although the company oni hv double storey, but they like to talk rubbish inside the phone, i really wonder if there hv time to talk, i everyday busy till mad d, oni lunch time can hv a breath, or mayb i m too noob in getting update news, haizzz, however, tats not my business, i juz wan to get my work done, n hope i m not the main character tat they discuss with, womens' war, really scary...........

world, c u tmr..

my convo

2009-08-16T20:49:00.003+08:00

had my convo ytd, thx to everyone, thx to my family, thx to my fren, thx to the god...

going to kl ytd, bring my mum n dad, straight go to my bro house there, then juz get to UM, everything is jz gud but the timing no gud, haha, actually wan meet with cmate at 1pm to take photo de, but i late jor, juz can get there around 120pm, straight park my car le n rush to um2009 there, when i get there, cmate help me to wear my harry potter shirt, then everything juz smooth, haha, thx to them, then v queue up at bp there, wait to get into the hall.... then v at dtc le, saw my mum n dad get into the hall oso, wait the ceremony proceed lo, when my turn get onto the stage, really nervous, wooooo, i think i can calm down, but cant, get the scroll from the ppl, the few second is juz like pass very slow, haha... i duno chyi help me write wat at the screen there, wait i get the photo 1st.... then get a news that outside raining heavily, haizzz me n fren v feel very pity.... but then v juz enjoy the ceremony in dtc, last time in dtc le(mostly)^^...but when v get outside the hall, the rain juz stop, really thanks to "laotianye", haha.... bro n dasao gv me flower n 2nd bro gv me winnie the pool, haha, feel sweet.... n find my coursemates to take photo, after that around 6pm, the rain start again, then go home loh, hving dinner with my family, then end one long day..... thx to my parents, let them wait so long in the hall, wait me take photo oso, thx to my big bro, be my camera man, dasao, put make some make up for me, 2nd bro din cum, but courier a bear bear for me, thx to all my frens, wishes, blessing, present, luv u all, muackssssssssss

financial assistant

2009-08-07T21:04:00.002+08:00

today is my 2nd day of work, work at sbn, juz one word, tired~~~

talking about ytd 1st, ytd, i got ntg to do for the whole day except helping the secretary to do some filling n read some text to my boss, coz they stil duno wan put me where n ask me help here n there 1st lo....

the company is quite big, hq got around 100 ppl working gua, din go count one by one, but they told me, include all the factory n staff, around 2000 ppl, erm... mayb mostly is foreign worker gua, dun got interest in it...

the company is doing rubber, manufacturing n process rubber, today human resource ppl ask me to go help at financial department, n my post is financial assistant, due to the contract is p&c, i din upload it here la....

financial department, one manager, one asst manager, three worker n me, sum up all is 6 ppl, since got one staff will leave in the end of this month, then bcum 5.. now, can u imagine the work volume v hv??? wan to do all the things for major 4 company, n wat i can say is, the company financial problem quite serious, erm, my meaning is they hv to wait money paid then just can pay to others, i think mayb is they cant collect the money in time, but tats not our problem, those is marketing or account dept, our major problem is, v hv to find money to pay for supplier, find money means find where the account got money n transfer n pay 1st, just busy.....

start work is busy, check tis check tat, before lunch then quite ok a bit, after lunch, busy again, find money check where got money, before leave, can fb d, haha, crazy day...

today leanred many things..... but my head bcum bigger d, wan rmb quite a lot of things oso, but now at home mostly cant rmb le, haha, tmr go die lo.....

meet my secondary sch mate there oso, v both really happy, long time din c le, but meet at here, she is training til nov, n both of us hv a taught, cant trust fully to anyone in the company, juz b careful lo, office politic ma.........

八月了

2009-08-02T10:53:00.002+08:00

明天，我就要上班了，office工，但是我现在在后悔着，因为对这间公司没有什么好感，那天interview过后，就决定请我，哎，怎么芙蓉的公司都一下就做决定，一时反应不过来，就这样了，哈哈，意思就明天去上班，但是现在的心情完全没有兴奋，只有想着要如何拒绝，哎，还没有开始做工就有想逃得感觉，要死的我……应该是公司的感觉，应该怎样说，人选我，我选人，可能这是定律吧，现在超希望拿到prudential的offer,那天那个经理超级好，也跟他谈了很多，哎，人通常是会比较的，我也不例外，觉得在芙蓉这边没有什么学习机会给我，公司给我的感觉，就是要绑死你一世人的感觉，哎呀，明天去看看吧……期待prudential，两个星期……

顺其自然

2009-07-30T15:49:00.002+08:00

应该努力的改变，还是要静观其变？

面包与爱情，你如何选？

鱼与熊掌，有如何呢？

世界没有两全其美的东西

只有残酷的现实

乘着还有自由的空间

享受顺其自然的感觉吧

不同的滋味

2009-07-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

短短的几天，让我体会天堂与地狱的感觉，我不喜欢这样子，平淡一点可以吗？正常一点也不失为过。即将要开工了，希望我会适应环境工作，但是还是有点不甘心，星期五，我最后的希望，请保佑我，也不想再驾车途中脚抽痉了，这滋味一点都不好受，需要停在一边休息，没有经验的我，害怕极了，还好休息后还能驾，哈哈，当时觉得就世界末日……保险，怎样的行业？起码被叫了十多次，也拒绝了不少，这次我能够吗？去新加坡会是怎样的感觉？矛盾中，毕业典礼要想，未来的路更要想，生活也要想，突然之间多了好多东西，肩上永远有一定的重量，也许这就叫担子，我应该要努力把它撑起来……

lunch at san fransico steak house

2009-07-15T12:57:00.002+08:00

monday, i go kl, for an interview n cc my brother oso, n oso go walk walk...

tropicana, i quite love to go there, coz there more relax than other shopping mall, not many ppl, cold cold feeling....

after seeing so many catalog, my lunch take place at san fransico, coz i dun think it wil quite cheap n i wan to try the food oso...

from the restaurant outside, can saw many ppl hving lunch there, mostly is working ppl, n i wear so "cincai" compared to them, feel a bit sorry...

but the captain there very gud, lead me to seat, n wat can i say, juz the service is superb, waitress n waiters very nice, they will tell u wat is tat when serve the food, mayb i look like wat oso duno gua, haha, the picture below, the sea clam mushroom soup, n the bread, n the small scoop of " ", haha, actually i duno wat is it, but the captain told me it is garlic butter, nice name, n nice taste oso, full of garlic smells, the soup very creamy, luv tat oso, n i got one big cup of sprite oso...

and my main course, lamb shoulder, with some salads, haha, duno the chef accidentally make it or purposely, juz feel very artistic, something similar to wat v always watch at movie or drama, i like the main course, simply, its my second times to eat lamb, delicious n juicy, the waiter oso bring me some sauces, i think got chilies, tomato, n olive oil with spices.. normally ppl say eat lamb wil feel smelly, but twice i tried it, oso dun hv the smell, mayb bcoz i m not so sensitive to the smell or the chef is gud enuf or etc etc etc etc etc..

haha, really have great experince in tat restaurant, for me, wat oso perfect, n the atmosphere oso nice, think its too expensive?? haha, rm19.45 cum taxes, worth?? i think worth, go hv a try...

糟糕的我

2009-07-12T22:52:00.006+08:00

每天，情绪都在不稳定中，一点小事可以让我生气，一点小事也可以让我高兴，更可以为莫名其妙的事痛哭一场，我真的生病了，病得不轻，但是解药是什么我不知道，去哪儿找也不知，只有每天随便地混过去……

no longer...

2009-07-05T13:54:00.002+08:00

tmr is start uni class again le, but not of my business, haha, actually got feel a bit not easy, coz these three yrs ard suit the life open sch on july, then can go bec campus to chat, meet housemate to xiao, haha, now no more le, stuck in bro shop here, chat with them at pj, erm... got a bit weird de, haha... recently sore throat d, duno wat happen this time, coz everytime sore throat means something bad going to happen to my body, but tis time quite serious oso, talk n drink water oso will feel pain, erm... i better less talk, haha, chat at msn can la...

2/7/09

2009-07-02T21:27:00.002+08:00

ytd i go for a company for management trainee, today they ask me to go for their orientation, erm... oreintation, basically not oreintation at all, i juz follow them to c wat they do everyday, they going to do sales to other ppl... my leader, n two other ppl, v four ride a small kancil, with many books (books is the things tat wan to sell), then v go to nilai, taman semarak... when reach there, around 10am d, v eat breakfast, then start doing the things d, since my leader got something to do, then he left us three there, then, i follow one of the ppl then start to promote the books, actually i not very like to do like tis, but then when they ask me how was it, i juz say ok, then after v walk around two to three rows of shop, they manage to sell few books, erm... suite gud oso la, i dun even think got ppl buy tim, but oklo, haha.... then they go to deliver the books, according to them, since they hv done the order on monday n tuesday, then they hv to deliver on thurs n friday, n i go with my leader then, in half hour, he manage to sell three books le, wau, saw him talking with ppl juz very fun n easy, but if let me do tat, i juz cant reach his level, erm... always c ppl is gud la... haha, then on the way bec, they help me in this n that, help me in my second test, since the second interview wan to base on the test performance, i study ba, n the way going b to office, i struggle wan to do this job onot, but finally....... i reject le, haizzz, me so noob la, they say wat so gud oso cant make me agree, haizzz, sorry to them, but i did very well in the test, the manager oso get shock when i reject, erm... my conclusion is: since i m not very interest in this job, n i m not very confident i can do it, talk is gud but done is another things, so i better find one tat i manage to do it, at least 50%, but tis one i oni hv 20%, so sorry to them, teach me for the whole noon, hope they wil do well oso....

condolences for the stars

2009-06-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

michael jackson, for me, a star, his death, shock for me, juz oni shock, until i heard a song, duno wat name le, feel very warm, then i cry for him le... haizz... u can say my tears not valuable, bcoz i can tears for anyone at anytime, anyway, pray for him, hope he is well in other place...

erm... when my time is finish in this world, i wil leave quietly, at least for now, i think like tat, but in the future time, this thought mostly wil change, bcoz i wiil tel my spouse, the oni one, i wish to go earlier than him, bcoz i m a selfish person, i cant afford the painful of the lost, but it is stil early saying for the time, mayb the thought til change in the future, who know? but i know its hardly to..

原来不是这样的

2009-06-24T17:30:00.004+08:00

我看的，全部都不是真的，对我好，骗我的，而我却傻傻的受骗，一次又一次的把我丢下，我真的忍无可忍，一次又一次的原谅你，我真的忍不了，我需要离开，就这样了……

正常的一天

2009-06-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

原来不寻常已经是我面对的每一天，今天超乎的正常，希望明天也一样，大后天也一样，天天都一样，把我拉回正轨……

快乐，不见了

2009-06-13T23:48:00.002+08:00

你来了又走，来到时，停留不久，别人说快乐其实很简单，以前我也认为如此，当五月天的“你不是真正的快乐”出的时候，发觉快乐有时很难，有时也很简单，但是现在很难，觉得快乐离我很远很远，不要说真正的快乐，这一秒，你觉得很快乐，下一秒，它就不见了。中间人一点都不好做，这道理，明白了很久，但是，这次我逃不掉，不能逃，两边都有道理，有时会为任何一边心痛，痛很久，很辛苦啊，就来撑不住了，为什么会这样？我到底做错什么了？要这样来折磨我，很想就这样离开，期望有不让我掉泪的一天……

conflict

2009-06-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

wat hard work return?? ntg... really disappointed tis time, wat i do are all useless, can b ignore for one minute, even cant stand for one second, juz get the painful lesson... no idea wat shuld i do le, shuld i cont?? yea, i shuld, i hv to continue, if not it wont hv anyone to do tat... although really wan to run, wan to escape, can i? do i? cant, emotional for once at a moment, or one hr is too long, i oni hv 1 min, duno when i can sustain all those things, hope i wont fall tat easily..

will or have to

2009-06-08T13:07:00.002+08:00

sometimes when we deal with some situation, we have to do this n that
sometimes oso, when we deal with it, we will do this n tat
will to means we hv choices?? then have to means we oni hv one road in front of us, no turning bec?? when u deal with have to, wat will u do?? deal with hv to so many times, it wil reveal the world is more crucial then v think of, the more u hv no choices, then u know that is is darker outside, it is normally to ppl, when v understress, v c the world is very dark, but when v r not in depressed area, v feel like tis world is full of hoping, but when u feel darker b4, n now u r in the sunny, will u feel that dark wont cum again?? basically i believe in this oso, but situation make me change, one month time, heaven to hell and wont go bec to heaven again, something i used to believe it is right but now no more, pls forgv me not to mention it, bcoz whenever i get to there again, i feel it is very dirty, n everywhere oso so dark, mayb have some light in btwn, but then i din c it....

528

2009-05-28T13:32:00.003+08:00

today, quite a big day, coz almost everything wil b settle today, tats wat i think for the previous day, but after ytd, it seems not really a dcide day...
i m doing somethings, think it wil end today, but then someone told me i hv to continue it til next week, haizzz, tired.....
n today early early in the morning, barcelona vs manchester united, as a mu fans, the result is not wat i expect to, so today turn to blue blue colour after 530am....

ytd nite oso, my big black wan gone mad oso, haha, but i today sent to hp service there check, fortunately ppl working there told me it is small matter, is their false for not complete the settings after repaired it last time, phew~~~ gud news at last!!!

n today, dumpling days, my favourite day!! haha, last time i used to believe that today hv to eat dumpling for the whole day, but nowadays it seems hard to achieve it but stil can if v wan, but my fren say i m sot sot de coz eat whole day dumpling will make the digestive system to hv a critical time, so, for my health, i stopped my tradition for quite years d....

n stay tunned tomoro, haha, important day for me!!!!! wil b cont^^

累~~

2009-05-18T10:49:00.004+08:00

一个星期的奔波，消耗的精神确实不少，今天，“惰性大发”，哈哈，哪里都不想去，只想静静待在家，静静的享受疲惫感，也许一天的充电，能够让我思绪清晰，想清楚未来的路怎么走

10 days after exam

2009-05-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

these few days many things had happened...
my big black, brroke down on thursday nite, haizzz, fren told me harddisk got problem d, then i sent it to operation on friday, doctor say it need three days working days to recover, then i hv to wait lo....
these few days, i pass with no comp with me, n think of wan to dl all things again when it recover, more work to do...
n saturday, my bro sick le, then i hv to help in his shop, fever, stay at hospital til tuesday, i hv to take over his shop le, fortunately got ppl help me, if not i wait die le.... everyday wake up at 7am, finish at 7pm, really working le, stil dun hv the mood to go for work, but suddenly like tis.....
n stressful for these few days, hair keep droping non stop, everyone c me oso ask me wat to do, find job onot, erm, i actually not prepared yet to battle in the real world, n now finding hard lo....
ppl keep on asking me go for sale, or insurance, haizzzz, i duno, my head wan burst d, god aaaaa, pls help me aaaaa.....
n now get my big black bec le, everything need to start over, gv me strength to overcum it la...

finish le

2009-05-06T10:15:00.002+08:00

en, i finish my studies on 4th may, 1315, i think i can feel joyful when finish exam, but tis time not wat i expected, no cheers, no joyful, juz got the feeling release d, very tired d, start duno when, everytime struggle for exam, for studies, most of my lifes is related to studies, other things din think too much, pity hor??? start from now onwards, i wan to think of others things d, my future, wat wil i b in one month time?? no idea, dun wan ask me wat i aim for now, dun wan ask me wat i wan to do, n dun wan ask me wat job i prefer, i can oni tel u i duno, let me got time to arrange my life future, when it is ready, i wil tel...

缺眠

2009-04-24T17:48:00.002+08:00

前几天，缺眠了，缺眠，因为考试，我就是那种临时抱佛脚的人，哈哈……
缺眠，很恐怖，我都讨厌我自己，对人不理不睬，电话讲没到几分钟就不耐烦。通常缺眠的下午，我都会好好地睡，因为不关事的人，所以补眠不成功，只睡了一个小时，晚上又因为答应了别人东西，要做到，所以补眠计划彻底失败……第二天，就是昨天，整个人提不起劲来，任何事物我都觉得很烦，任何人我都觉得很吵，幸好回家了，不然都不知会发生什么事，驾车也很危险一下，只好一直喝水来让自己精神……回到家，安安稳稳的在家睡了整个下午，接着晚上继续补眠计划，还好都不错，计划还成功啦……千万不要惹不够睡的人，不够睡得人千万不要驾车，不信？自己试一下^^

nice morning

2009-04-21T13:18:00.002+08:00

today is a gud morning, not the greeting, nice rain cum at the right time, make morning so gud n peace, actually ytd nite sleep late, think of today wake up late a bit, but around 7 like tat wake up d, watching rain outside, pj long time din hv fresh air d!!!! or can i say, i dun hv fresh air long time d.... tmr wil hv my 1st two paper for my final, erm... actually i dun study til mad for tis sem, i oso duno y, mayb juz hope can pass n grad gua.... but stil, cant left it n din study at all, haha, juz complicated... wish me luck for the final, ok??

my last study week

2009-04-14T13:59:00.002+08:00

start my last study week in UM d, wan to grad soon, hope can grad soon, haha... in one month time, i wil finish my studies, wil throw my book aside, wil leave 260, wil say bye to my coursemate, wil say bye to my lecturer, wil say bye to my housemate... hope they r well

卖鱼的

2009-04-11T17:50:00.002+08:00

要跟卖鱼的人说，不要一生都在卖鱼，因为久了，身上的腥味永远都会在的，纵使以后可能会除掉腥味，但是对我来说，是没有分别的，请自重，发泄完毕，谢谢……

失控

2009-04-09T08:40:00.002+08:00

要求，想法，脾气，我都有，不表露，不代表没有，到现在我都还不能好好地控制，原本以为控制得很好，但是一有风吹草动就会失控，全部都乱了，还有很长的路要走……

my korean classmate..

2009-04-06T12:47:00.002+08:00

last wednesday, my korean teacher bring our whole class go to korean restaurant there to hv lunch, v around 29 ppl, duno how many cars(coz not sure), go to subang there to hv lunch, the restaurant name is "kwa hua", the food quite nice lo, haha, i like t lamb!!! sweet sweet one...
the 全家福of our classmate...
tis one is me n my teacher, korean ppl quite beuaty ooooooo!!

tis one is our ism ppl, haha, coursemates, coursemates...

tis one is the 煎饼，korean duno how to say d...haha

the side dishes..

the meat, got lamb, chicken n pork, beef is in another bowl coz some of us din eat beef..

earth hour

2009-03-29T18:09:00.003+08:00

28/3/09, 2030-2130 is earth hour, wat i m doing tat time?? haha, i fall asleep d, n wake up at around 2100, then my earth hr left half an hr, sorry to my earth, haha...
n mention about sorry, wan to say sorry to my or@nji oso, coz duno where make her body crash d, fortunately not a big crash, n dad manage to cover it up, hehe...
stil got two weeks to say goodbye to my lecturer, if not count in exam la, then goodbye for my books for tis moment, but then tmr tis two weeks got four test, i wan faint d, haha, stil need put somemore effort in it...
on the way doing something, wish it wil b suceed when it is time...

小小的快乐

2009-03-23T23:44:00.002+08:00

那天突然很想吃面包，但又不要简单地，就把面包切小块，打一粒鸡蛋，放点酱油，把面包外面弄上蛋液，然后放平底锅煎，颜色好了就好，哈哈，热热吃还不错！！

这是我新买的usb hub，他是我大黑和他妻子的结晶……困扰了？哈哈

买usbhub时，刚好digitalmall有function，然后请到不知哪里的苏丹，坐中间穿格子衣服的就是了，兴奋，原来我也有机会见到苏丹的

他对我笑，很明显叫我过去坐着跟他一起拍照啦，哈哈哈……

他要离开时还有握手，我当时就呆了下，结果就没有握到，苏丹一定很失望，哈哈哈

生活需要一点点的快乐，才会有力量走下去，休息是为了走更长远的路，那么，快乐就是路途上的水，能在需要时补充能量，让长远的路，也不会觉得太累

어떡하죠

2009-03-19T01:28:00.003+08:00

어떡하죠

내 가슴이 얼었으면
자꾸 타는 사랑이 꺼지게
제발 그만 가슴아 그만해
그렇게 자꾸 타면 힘들잖아
괜찮다고 괜찮을 거라고
데인 내 가슴을 또 쓸어보지만
입술이 떨려와 눈물이 차올라
울기 싫은데 눈물이 내 말 안들어
어떡하죠 저 애를 사랑합니다
날 보고 웃네요 이런 날 모르고 있죠
어떡하죠 이런 날 들켜버린다면
저 웃음을 다신 볼 수 없겠죠
사랑하는 내 맘이 눈빛에 섞일까
조심하며 바라봅니다
안된다고 이러지 말라고
가슴이 못 뛰게 숨을 꼭 참지만
입술이 떨려와 눈물이 차올라
터져나오는 한숨에 또 무너져요
어떡하죠 저애를 사랑합니다
날보고 웃네요 이런 날 모르고 있죠
어떡하죠 이런 날 들켜버린다면
저 웃음을 다신 볼 수 없겠죠
사랑해요 그댄 날 계속 몰라줘요
영원토록 바라볼게요

不会翻译，也不太懂它在讲什么，就只是感觉

again >.<

2009-03-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

always take responsibility to something i dont need to, always done something stupid that never think of, always say something not really filtered by my brain.... everytime keep on remind myself not to do tat, not to touch tis, but still.... get into trouble myself, take things to disturb my life, make life much more difficult..... duno wat word should describe myself d....

meaningful mail...

2009-03-15T19:33:00.003+08:00

check my mailbox juznow, found tis kind of things, wat can i say??

if wan to make comparison btwn us n them, can u calculate the difference??

crazy for two days...

2009-03-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

recently i join a game call 3kingdom, who got listen to myfm shuld know, i ard play it 10 days d, erm, actually tis one more interesting than last time i play de, "fbm", tis one seems more challenging, n got ppl help u when u need help, haha.... the game hv a tournament, got present for top ppl n guild, n i join a quite strong guide on monday, when i get in, they told me to help on pushing the guild to higher ranking, haha, finally my guild get rank6 d, actually i din do much things compare to those who r really strong, some of them use real money to play tis game, of course, cant compare me with them... tired n crazy for these two days, but fun, haha... last minutes when the tournament wan to finish, my guild member really sot jor, n i oso halfly sot oso, haha... all messed up, after tat all tired, n they starting discuss how to share the bonus, erm... its not important for me, important that i can hv fun from tis, haha.........

1%

2009-03-11T09:55:00.005+08:00

想念你
思念你
挂念你
怎么办
不知道
希望你
过得好
好起来

achievement of these two weeks

2009-03-04T23:46:00.003+08:00

finish my mid sem
next paper is 30th march, although some is no gud, but doesn't affect my holiday mood, today paper langsung tak ada idea y i can get high marks,
3 ques:
1st one, not same answer with others,
2nd one, my answer doesn't make sense
3rd one, proof, fortunately can get wat the last line is

finish my assignment
monday finish my assignment, c++ assignment, programming, duno y last time i so brave to make decision to take tis course, now no turning bec d, hv to keep on going, some of the question stil know, some really duno how to do, everyday search net, ask ppl, fortunately got fun and weifu help, haha, pass up d, if no problem can gua, haha, to do the stupid assignment, i din sleep well for one week, haizzz, pity..

korean class
last wednesday, interesting happened in my korean class, v all, student attend for korean class, around 30 ppl gua, watch dvd at class together, haha, wat a gud experience!! the movie is nice, touching, v all diam diam watch tat movie, haha, feel weird n warm tat time, watching with mostly unknown friends, duno how to say... my korean teacher very gud oso, treat us so nice, cant wait for go out gather with them le, hehe..... but now i wan to catch up with the verbs 1st, long time din improve a bit bcoz of those stupid test....

game game
today, finally, write a blog here, almost everydya cum here, but not sure wat i wan to write, write til half way then dun wan le, but tis one i will finish de, hehe... today i re-play my gg d, two weeks din play d, juz finish one game, nice, got pro teamate then sure win lo, around 30min gg le, haha, really can solve my thinking that " kill ppl"... from kiat introduction, i start playing 3kingdom, erm, so far so gud lo, tis one got chat box to chat with ppl who duno, haha, see ppl scold here scold there lo, msia culture... my fbm now no mood playing d, coz my guild wanna break d, hv a great time with them, go attack ppl together n make the ppl run, haha, they quite take care of me although duno each other, now a bit sad coz they wan gv up it d, all say xian to play d, now no more mission d, make me no mood play, haizzz, sad sad...

plan for tmr, wan go career path, walk there cc, c can get my future job onot.. n plan to go to tropicana, c how it is, erm, c how tmr, wan to c the weather, wan to c my mood, wan to c my o'r@nj! oso, hehe.....

conclude of my three days

2009-02-26T16:28:00.003+08:00

since these three days, the taufan stil there, but not as serious as tat day, coz something happened d...
after i wrote taufan post, i hit my knee, now it changed colour from green to chocolate d, i think is bcoz one of my fren passed me the bad luck, coz b4 tat she oso pk, haha, (count on others make me feel better)^^
the next day i go for donation blood, mostly the last pack of blood donate in UM, but too many ppl, the whole process around half hour, one drop of blood can save the world, really nice the title, as usual, after donation, it normally hv something like biscuit or wat to take bec home, so, i always called it as selling blood, haha....
sumore i suddenly think of my assignment not done yet, c++ programming, wan to pass up next week, haizz, i wan faint d, coz duno how to do, better ask ppl later, n i hv test next week oso, erm... conclude for these three days, it seems similar to weather at pj, most suit is evening time, blackie blackie one....

n wat cheer up me in the morning is tis one

tis one duno y, making so much fun in facebook, i seem get the poison from this photo, i tagged ppl while listening to lecture, haha, one heart two use, every thursday oso like tis, haha...

afternoon, i plan to do my assignment one, but then my sister-in-law, haha, my dasao, lunch with me, coz she promise me to bring me eat japanese food when she hit the budget, she really hv done it, so, i got meals to eat!! v go to the old klang road there, japanese restaurant, erm, if not mistaken, the name is Zenri, the food really nice, normally i feel wan to vomit when i eat sashimi, but todays one really delicious, i eat bento set, my dasao eat kimchi nabe, n hv one more dragon role n then macha ice-cream, guess how much v ate?? 100 can hv few cents change lo... expensive aaaa, but the food really nice, the best salmon sashimi i ever had!!tis one really can cheer me up, haha....

ribut taufan

2009-02-24T23:43:00.004+08:00

today suppose a gud day for me coz juz finish a test, but then seems everything not perfect, my mood no gud since from afternoon, juz some simple things disturb me....
flies are around n i cant do anything bcoz it got the right to be here, flies make noise n i cant shut its mouth by scolding it, flies are so 8 but i cant make it fly away.....
am i mystery enuf to let u discover?? am i disturb u when i set away for my msn?? is it wan to sent u a list tat who i m always chatting with?? does my answer not short enuf to let u feel tat i dun wan talking anymore??
pls la, be aware when the storm is cuming lo, n dun think it always sunny days, sunny days oso will hv storm one...

korean language part1

2009-02-23T19:19:00.003+08:00

almost 9th weeks i had attend for korean class, so far lecturer say our level can survive in korea, means v can understand the most simple one n speak the most simple oso, haha...

today i juz know how to write korean using my big black, so nice, although it is quite late since it is already half sem, but i still manage to do it oso, haha, quite proud of it oso (dun tease me) ^0^

erm, i try to write the simple simple one 1st... lecturer still not yet teach us write our name, but she say soon will be....
림이쬐my name, cr8 myself, hehe

this is the keyboard for the korean

and these are the simple sentences...

안녕하세요==>an-yeong-ha-sei-yo --> greetings, hello, goodmorning, goodafternoon....

감사합니다==>kam-sa-ham-ni-da-->thankyou

고맙습니다==>ku-mab-sem-ni-da-->thankyou

안녕히가세요==>an-yeong-he-ga-sei-yo-->byebye

미안합니다==>mi-an-ham-ni-da-->i am sorry

죄송합니다==>chue-sung-ham-ni-da-->i am sorry

안녕하십니까? ==>an-yeong-ha-sib-ni-ka-->how r u?

반갑습니다==>pan-gap-sem-ni-da-->nice to meet u

i think tats all for now 1st, coz tmr wan exam, but still not yet revise, haha, wait die.... tmr after exam juz cum play again!!

good try for tmr..

2009-02-19T00:42:00.002+08:00

tmr i m going to drive bec to my hometown d.. erm, actually i long time din go bec hometown by car le, recently is going bec by ktm, but tis time, i wan to search the map from my brain there to revise it, to memorise it, the route going bec to my hometown, haizzz...
now i m regret, y i dun rmb the route properly when my brother driving, but now no use d, except i gv him a call tmr, ask him to standby for me whenever i lost or wat, haha, but i think i wont do tat gua, coz i now seaching google map!! it is quite useful things, hope i can find the route going bec to home... now hv few possibilities:
a) i find the route n i get bec home within an hr
b) i cant find the route n ask help from my bro
c) i lost somewhere else n i need a taxi driver
suddenly think of the form 5 poem, road diverges into two, but i oni can take one................, forget wat else of it n oso forget the name of the poem d, paiseh la...
a bit similar situation here, n hope i can choose the correct one....

one more line for my life book

2009-02-15T17:18:00.002+08:00

after training for three months, each month around 4-5 times, stil not reach 100 times yet, but i make things happened today!!!
yeah, i drive car car to pj lo, but then tis one not my car, coz my car stil hv medical check up at my brother there, haha...
next week ba, next week wil bring him down n go around at pj here, n i think everyone shuld b careful coz i m not professional, hehe... till now i stil no gud at side parking, if the space in in btwn two cars, then i hv to try very hard to fit the car in, haha, fortunately UM dun need many side parking de....
today i need one hour to reach pj, erm, quite ok timing oso la, haha, n i 1st time use touch n go, wahaha... tocuh n go bought last week, think of if got many cars then use it, but today i straight to to tat line, hehe, used up rm3++..
my family quite worry tat i drive car cum to pj, coz i so "new" in driving world, haha, my parents ask me to be careful at least 10 times d, n my brother oso "ganzheong", scare me duno how to get to pj, hehe, n i proved tat i can, although i oso papa....n_n
so many 1st time today, hehe, then of course wan to post it la^0^

14/2/2009

2009-02-15T01:03:00.002+08:00

wat can complete for today is juz complicated, actually i plan not to do something, but yet, i hv done tat, n i plan to do womething, n of course, din do it oso, weird weird... wat i going to do next time i oso not dare to say, cant judge wat it wan, t means my heart, suddenly can change mind so fast, is tat the germini charcteristic?? curious about it... n wishes all my fens happy valentine!! hope i can found another part of my life when he is there..

小老鹰

2009-02-09T16:49:00.003+08:00

小老鹰
从出生到嗷嗷待哺
永远都躲在呵护中
遇到太阳的照射
云朵就会尽量挡住
大雨的来临
树叶就会是雨伞
强风的袭击
小鹰的窝依旧在
大鹰最近对小鹰说了个故事
小鹰终于知道
它认知的窝
原来也曾经过暴风的摧残
经过大雨的洗礼
纵使没有了避雨的地方
但是它并没有着凉
它还是长得好好的
只因有很多的呵护
大鹰的老鹰的
甚至是已经变成天使老鹰的
全都默默守护着
小鹰不知道
可能有更多的秘密等着它
等着它的成长
一一地为它揭晓
一一地让它去探索
也许大鹰在等待
等待小鹰会飞翔的时候
才让它去承受
曝晒在太阳底下
会变成落汤的小鹰
或者抵受强风的袭击
大鹰会让小鹰去承担
小鹰会学习一切的一切
因为小鹰已经开始长羽毛
开始长翅膀
能承受一切的一切

我的天，已经是灰色了……

2009-02-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

今天，灰色的天，从一早就是灰色的，很多东西等着我，上课又不是很有心情听，老师在讲，我在半发呆状态，还好老师没什么发觉，灰色的天，代表着灰的东西等着我，手头上有三分assignment要交，一份是星期五之前，另两份下个星期前，老师再接再厉给多一份，都不知要几时交，又不会做，啊，真的要晕了，下个星期的两份又不会做，晕上加晕，别人怎么都这么的厉害，老师都还没有教到，就已经会做了，应该是我的头脑迟钝过渡吧，还是别人的脑袋太厉害，哎呀，不管了，随便乱抄就是了。
功课显然不是最让我晕的原因，还有更劲爆的，就是被逼放别人鸽子，我说的是被逼，中间人永远都很难做人，别人要求到，又要问，过后反悔了，又要跟另一方交代，我想我的信用，已经不值钱了，分文不值，哎哟，真的晕到不行，改天真的不要再当中间人了，但是每次都这样讲，每次别人要求，还是做了，很激气啊，生自己的闷气阿……
最近常向神求救，求他救救我，这次也一样，请他帮帮忙，不然我快要变白发魔女了，白发魔女出现在灰色的天空下，题材还可以吧……

re-start for the last

2009-02-02T19:41:00.003+08:00

after chinese new year, cum bec again to my studies le, stil got 10 more weeks to conclude my uni life, erm, quite fast oso, but if compared to almost 18 years of studies, i think it should be enough, at least enough for me now, hahaha, coz no mood to study d, then hv to say like tat...
today my body quite well compared to the previous, juz duno wat is waiting for me tomoro, is it red spot all here n there?? or is it itchy for the whole body??? cant hv an answer, even doctor oso cant answer my stupid question, haha, wat always in my mind is, it wil recover soon, gv more patient on it, isnt it a +ve thought?? wahahaha..

基孔肯雅

2009-01-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

朋友见我都紧张，哈哈，我身上的红点一大堆，手啊，脸的，都问我什么事，“基孔肯雅症”，这个名词，一直都忘记，所以就讲到去“viralfever”，现在看到报纸写，这是一种蚊症，但是又没有骨痛热症这样严重，要进医院，这是他的解说，找了一下下的
“基孔肯雅”是斯瓦西里语，意为“弯曲”，因为得病的人出现关节炎症状，最后弯腰曲背。感染者的典型症状是肌肉酸痛，尤其是脚部疼痛，一周后会自愈，但是期间病情较重，严重影响劳动能力。除了关节和肌肉疼痛外，发病者有时还发热，恶心呕吐，可能并发脑膜炎而丧命。本病潜伏期3~12天。发热病人常突然起病，寒战、发热，体温可达39℃，伴有头痛、恶心、呕吐、食欲减退，淋巴结肿大。一般发热1~7天即可退热，约3天后再次出现较轻微发热，持续3~5天恢复正常。有些患者可有结膜充血和轻度结膜炎表现。关节疼痛与发热同时，患者全身的多个关节和脊椎出现十分剧烈的疼痛，且病情发展迅速，往往在数分钟。
但是我有些症状都没有，呕吐，骨头也没有痛，哎呀，现在只是手背，脸，脚，有痒，红点也不会消去，希望他快快消啦，脸已经开始脱皮了，再脱多几次就没有了，那就流血吧，哈哈哈哈……

难忘的新年

2009-01-29T13:11:00.004+08:00

新年的三天，我都去拜访医生，真是无言……
年初一，发烧就来傻掉了，身上长了红点，怕怕，立刻就去医院验血咯，当时的温度是39.3度，哗，自我懂事以来温度最高的一次，脸就来可以煎鸡蛋了，但是手是冷冷的，当时心里想会不会烧坏脑去，然后验血，医生讲没有什么是喔，红点会跟着发烧退去的，弄得来就差不多十二点了，回到家，吃了药，半夜两点起身，烧退了点，红点也没有这样多了，嗯，可以放心了……
初二，一早醒来，红点突然很多，脸又变烧了，又上芙蓉医院看医生，今天的温度是38度，今天换了一个比较像医生的人来看我，哈哈哈，这是大嫂讲的，他讲我的是“viralfever",会造成脚痛和红点，这样听会比较听得进去吧……
初三，烧又退了点，但是妈妈还是不放心，然后我又去到了私人诊所，那个医生是我们从小看到大的，医生说，我的是“鸡孔肯雅症”，是透过蚊子传染的，它跟发烧没什么两样，只是关节有时会痛，他还讲医院的医生为了不要写报告，所以讲“viralfever”喔，他跟我打了针，他说打针会消掉点红点，关节没有很痛的。果然打了针过后，脚走起来没有这样痛了，然后我就决定了，上芙蓉拜年，哈哈哈，妈妈讲我发烧发到傻掉了，哎呀一年才和朋友见一次，不要紧啦，还好去拜年是朋友驾车，因为在车上就睡着了，不好意思啦……
朋友去拜年的比去年少很多人了，因为今年有些工作了，有些又不得空，哎，没办法，希望明年他们的公司能放假放久一点啦，这样就可以一起去拜年了，今年我没有去捞生，因为妈妈不放心，一定要在天黑之前回家，为了避免意外发生，也在朋友家睡了五分钟，哈哈哈……
今天年初四，跟二哥去电开工，现在吃过药，超想睡的，哎，只是没有床给我睡吧了，再忍多一下下，三四点就会家了，好好睡一下才行……
还是要祝福一下，新年快乐，身体健康（很需要），哈哈哈哈哈哈……

present for my 1st day of cny..

2009-01-26T19:48:00.003+08:00

today is 1st day of cny, suppose should be very happy, ytd nite i play game with my brother til late nite, but then today wake up, the situatin totally changed, fever, very hot, suffer, aiya, wat to do??? fast fast go to eat panadol, n since today clinic din open, haizzz, tmr hv to c doctor d, wat a big big present for my 09 chinese new year, wat my wishes for tis yr now is, fast fast recover, n then chu3 go meet my fren, n hv a nice nice new year... god aaaaa, pls help me....

新年来咯

2009-01-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

已经开学了四个星期，每个星期都模模糊糊地混过去了，哈哈哈，这几个星期都回家，就准备新年的东西咯，帮忙家里一下，还有做饼干，这次还不错，学会了炸芽菇饼，从一点点变多一点，从不会到会，从慢到快一点，还有还有，从割伤手指到完整无暇，哈哈哈，过程还好没有进医院，太完美了！！！

虽然每个星期回家都有点累，但是新年越接近，就越兴奋，不知怎么了，对这次的新年的感觉还不错，感觉很多东西在等着我，有好的，也有不好的，当然希望好的比不好的来得多，心里有很多愿望要实现，但是有不能太贪心，只好一个一个来吧……

新年还有几天就到了，家里做的也差不多了，期待新年，有红包拿，有玩，有朋友聚，但是，我这几天已经开始吃喝玩乐了，明天晚上吃村里的团圆饭，后天是年三十了，家里的团圆饭，再来就是初一，吃斋的，年初二在外婆家吃，年初三应该和中学朋友聚，真的就来撑破肚子了，就算不撑破，也一定会吃到死去，哈哈哈，不管了，过后再算吧……新年快乐快乐快乐

trying trying trying

2009-01-21T10:46:00.002+08:00

trying to do things to cover it
trying to solve wat ard hv
trying avoid wat wil on t way
trying to avoid t same thing in t future
always trying
but easy talk than done
trying hard hard hard

1月20日的早晨

2009-01-20T08:24:00.003+08:00

预料中的事，发生了，出尔反尔不是第一次，你让我一次又一次的失望，每次我能说什么？就只有默默地承受，你却好像若无其事，每次每次我都跟自己说，不要太相信你，可是我却又犯同样的错误，是你要帮忙你问，是你让我失信于别人，而且失信于同一个人，即使你不认识他，你可以不太在意，可是你有没有想过我？我很难做人的，陷入困境里，我要怎样跟人说？用你的借口说吗？反正他都不认识我，我又没有签约，那就算了吧……你没有想过我的立场，你没有考虑清楚你要不要，你只是玩玩下而已。是我天真，天真地以为你这次是真的了，不会再骗我了，但你却让我掉进深渊，你却在外头笑，说我笨……我真的笨到无可救药，一次又一次的相信你，每次都说别在在意你，可是每次都失败，是你让我觉得好朋友还有一段距离，是你让我觉得我们之间有宽阔的海洋，而我永远都不可能进入你的区域，你也不可能再到我的岛上来，就祝福你过得好……

my 5B steamboat gathering

2009-01-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

one yr passed d, n at last t steamboat gathering had done, haha, nice nice^^, tis yr held it at t new place, erm, no more lobak there, go to s2 d, try out new things wo... erm, around 20 ppl like tat ba, let me count count, weelip, shiwei, jinqi, daniel, tzeian, waichung, kahchun, chinliang, weifu, chewgeng, yeezhong, beeyong, siewhan, siewyen, siewwen, eyvon, ziting, chawmei, jane, n me lo, ohhhhhhh, ngam ngam 20 ppl, haha...but tis time steamboat not full oso, haizzz, i rmb i go to take food at least got 5 rounds d, but i go to chat here n there while it is cooking, after tat i wan to eat but it is no more d, left a bit oni, aiii, but can hv more time chat with them, nvm la, huhu... some of them din meet for lng time d, hope v can meet at chu3 then la!!!!

两天的时间

2009-01-14T08:45:00.002+08:00

两天的时间
可以做很多东西
可以什么都不做
两天的时间
会让人很累
会让人很厌倦
两天的时间
会让人喘不过气来
会让人消失
两天的时间
会让人头脑清醒
会让人困扰
这两天的时间
不知怎么了
就什么都没做
却就是那样子

two weeks to cny..

2009-01-11T18:32:00.003+08:00

stil hv two more weeks going to celebrate chinese new year loooo, haha, now ard in new yr mood d, no mood to study, no mood to go to clas, oni wait for cny holiday, hehe... normally home wil make cookies for cny, and go for some shopping to prepare all the things, n of course, i m busy to help to prepare all tat things... last friday, make "nga gu" biscuit, around 4 kg like tat, done in one hr time, haha, so geng... n got more geng one, is cut my hand!!! duno how many times i cut my own hand d, the previous week cut my right thumb, tat day is my left 2nd finger suffer,, haizz, cut is ntg new d, but tis time, quite deep in the wound, fortunately din cut out the whole finger, haha... next week mum plan to make another biscuit n fried all the snacks, i think tat one shuld take around 4 hrs gua, haizzz, tired again......
n now my condition is almost voiceless d, bcoz of t biscuit la, haha, watch my bro eat, then i follow eat, v can finish one bottle within one hr, haha, result is sore throat lo, fortunately din bring up to kl, if not sure die d, hehe, wan drink many many water at pj n then eat many many at kampung, haha, nice strategy...
next weekend is my 5B friend gathering, tis time gathering quite late a bit, but nvm, stil hv it n qi-dai-ing, hehe, n hope our cny gathering is there oso, haha...

知足的快乐

2009-01-07T23:51:00.002+08:00

今天意外的看到本杂志，里面有讲到星座的性格，觉得对我还蛮准的，书写双子最懂得享受生活的快乐，就算在烂泥巴里玩乐，也会高兴得不得了，很容易满足……嗯，认同吧，比起身边的朋友，的确较满足，小小的事情也能高兴一整天，朋友都说我要要求高点，哎，我不是没有要求阿，我也有，只是有时想到控制不了这么多，就顺其自然吧，反正会发生的迟早也会来，别人说这个不可以，那个不行，对我来讲还是有自己的底线，只是有时觉得会不会太势利了？？知道别人的看法不是随便能改变的，自己的看法也不容易变，也不希望自己变，因为喜欢这样的满足感，虽然小小的满足，不如大大的满足，带来大大的快乐，它只会带来小小的快乐，却是无时无刻都有……

sumting cum into my life~~

2009-01-05T19:24:00.003+08:00

start from today, i hv one things will b with me for t rest of my life, although i oni wan it when i need it, but it is going to end its life with mine too, haha...

my new spec!!!

finally i hv to wear it d, haizzz, tat day my bro bring me to make it, t ppl say right eyes is 10++ n left eye is 150++, after doing sum stuff... erm, then i hv tis things d...

today juz get it n wil feel faint faint when i wear it, t ppl say it is normal de wo, n teach me how to take gud care of it, haha, i really duno how, thx for his advices oso..

倒数

2009-01-01T09:35:00.003+08:00

和朋友去了倒数，在1u，人群还好，可能在比较前的位置吧，哈哈，这都要感谢绍美，谢她的朋友拿到前面的票，不然站在后方应该会很挤吧……去那边倒数，主要目的是看烟花，其次是看侧田。烟花真的很漂亮，跟在家看的不一样，它就是在你头顶上，仿佛你伸手就能摸到，烟火不知放了几分钟，除了陶醉在其中，还有就是颈项很痛，因为一直都要抬头望，哈哈，不过痛也值得的……过后就是压载戏，侧田出场了，一口气听了有四五首他的歌，很不错，虽然我不会歌词，但有些地方还会一点点，哈哈哈，high翻天！！待我拿到烟火的照片再放上来，烟火万岁，新年快乐！！！

sum up of my '08

2009-01-01T02:36:00.003+08:00

erm, actually wan sum up as my last dec post, but seems its too late, haha, juz accept la..

i hv a nice '08, i think it juz rank bhind my form4 n form5 life...

for family, i think ntg much changes, juz suddenly realised tat grandpa n grandma really old d, suffer from diseases always, dad n mum oso in half retire mood, big bro n sis-in-law hv their new house at menara duta there d, means i got another house to go in kl bside pj one, although tat 1 is their house, haha, 2nd bro had open a shop at sbn d, not a big one, but stil can manage it well la...
erm, basically i m not so gud in academic for tis yr, exam result juz so so oni, but i stil think is ok..
from relationship, i know more frens d, mostly is my coursemates, n some others is my "jabatan's mates", haha, nice 1.. realtion with hmates more n more gud, but they had moved out d for their LI, v stay together one n half yr d, although sometime v got a bit argue, but stil can solve out... erm, juz hv to say, its my pleasure to choose to live with u all..

n at t end of may, i had found part time to work as waitress at shogun japanese buffet restaurant, work every weekend, last for 6 months, stopped bcoz wan to prepare for exam d, haha.. thankful to the workers there, all is myanmar ppl, nice to us(fish n aiwen n bear), chef n supervisor r chinese n they oso very nice, its a work tat i din get scold from anyone n hv easy work there, miss them..

gains in tis yr much more than lost, many new frens cum into my life, some of them left rainbows for me, n i really appreciate it, wil i hv a nice '09?? hope so, n hope all my frens r well..

1st day of new sem

2008-12-30T20:23:00.003+08:00

today start my new sem, t last sem in my uni life(mostly), last yr last sem, feel no gud at all, tired, mayb stil in holiday mood gua, coz oni study for two days then holiday again, some of my fren even stil at their hometown holiday, haha... one word for today==>tired, wan to search new classroom, wan to go here n there, n not expect t lect wil start their lect today, but start d, haizzz, wat to do??? juz accept lo, haha, tmr even worse, start at 8, last at 6, hope can go b earlier, haha, tmr go for korean class luu, qidai-ing, n oso tmr go countdown lo, hope dun hv so much ppl, n oso not so few la, hehe, hope i can hv a nice tmr!!!

一个好爸爸

2008-12-28T22:58:00.003+08:00

下午看了这部戏“一个好爸爸”，还不错，有意思，又有点搞笑，哈哈哈……故事讲黑道爸爸意外地有了女儿，从此他的生活就变去，为了女儿做了很多事，也隐瞒他是黑道的身份，最后还是让女儿知道了，他也踏上黑道的不归路……最喜欢的一幕，女儿问妈妈为什么要拜两个神，妈妈说关公是拜义气的，圣母玛利亚是爱心的，爸爸也有说是双重保险，听起来还有点道理哦！！
这戏应该旧了吧，半年应该有了，哎哟，半年的戏现在才看，的确有点退伍了，哈哈哈，没办法，很久没去戏院看戏了，已经忘了最后在戏院看的戏了，……明天回PJ了，要上课了，一个月半的假期完了，终于开学了！！

树与我们

2008-12-26T00:19:00.004+08:00

种子
变成苗
再到小树
接着是大树
再来就老的树
再者就是我们说的——历史的见证
要如何才能成为历史的见证？
过程辛酸，我们没办法体会，因为我不是树，只能猜测，可能苗不小心就死去，也许大树中途就被砍去……
一生需要多少奇迹，多少幸运，多少努力，才会成为大树，过程只需一点意外，就毁了……
我们，需要多少奇迹，多少幸运，多少努力，才能成为健康的我们？经历的意外，多数我们都能承受，但它们能否和我们一样，经历无数的意外呢？
爱护它们，等于爱护着自己

merry christmas 2008!!

2008-12-25T00:19:00.003+08:00

today is christmas day, mayb a special day for some ppl, n a normal day for others, or even a rest for those who working, no matter wat, juz wan to wish all my fren hv a wonderful christmas, although v dun hv snow xmas, but i do think v hv our own santa in our heart, hapi xmas ooooo^^