快乐，不见了

你来了又走，来到时，停留不久，别人说快乐其实很简单，以前我也认为如此，当五月天的“你不是真正的快乐”出的时候，发觉快乐有时很难，有时也很简单，但是现在很难，觉得快乐离我很远很远，不要说真正的快乐，这一秒，你觉得很快乐，下一秒，它就不见了。中间人一点都不好做，这道理，明白了很久，但是，这次我逃不掉，不能逃，两边都有道理，有时会为任何一边心痛，痛很久，很辛苦啊，就来撑不住了，为什么会这样？我到底做错什么了？要这样来折磨我，很想就这样离开，期望有不让我掉泪的一天……

conflict

wat hard work return?? ntg... really disappointed tis time, wat i do are all useless, can b ignore for one minute, even cant stand for one second, juz get the painful lesson... no idea wat shuld i do le, shuld i cont?? yea, i shuld, i hv to continue, if not it wont hv anyone to do tat... although really wan to run, wan to escape, can i? do i? cant, emotional for once at a moment, or one hr is too long, i oni hv 1 min, duno when i can sustain all those things, hope i wont fall tat easily..

will or have to

sometimes when we deal with some situation, we have to do this n that
sometimes oso, when we deal with it, we will do this n tat
will to means we hv choices?? then have to means we oni hv one road in front of us, no turning bec?? when u deal with have to, wat will u do?? deal with hv to so many times, it wil reveal the world is more crucial then v think of, the more u hv no choices, then u know that is is darker outside, it is normally to ppl, when v understress, v c the world is very dark, but when v r not in depressed area, v feel like tis world is full of hoping, but when u feel darker b4, n now u r in the sunny, will u feel that dark wont cum again?? basically i believe in this oso, but situation make me change, one month time, heaven to hell and wont go bec to heaven again, something i used to believe it is right but now no more, pls forgv me not to mention it, bcoz whenever i get to there again, i feel it is very dirty, n everywhere oso so dark, mayb have some light in btwn, but then i din c it....

528

today, quite a big day, coz almost everything wil b settle today, tats wat i think for the previous day, but after ytd, it seems not really a dcide day...
i m doing somethings, think it wil end today, but then someone told me i hv to continue it til next week, haizzz, tired.....
n today early early in the morning, barcelona vs manchester united, as a mu fans, the result is not wat i expect to, so today turn to blue blue colour after 530am....

ytd nite oso, my big black wan gone mad oso, haha, but i today sent to hp service there check, fortunately ppl working there told me it is small matter, is their false for not complete the settings after repaired it last time, phew~~~ gud news at last!!!

n today, dumpling days, my favourite day!! haha, last time i used to believe that today hv to eat dumpling for the whole day, but nowadays it seems hard to achieve it but stil can if v wan, but my fren say i m sot sot de coz eat whole day dumpling will make the digestive system to hv a critical time, so, for my health, i stopped my tradition for quite years d....

n stay tunned tomoro, haha, important day for me!!!!! wil b cont^^

累~~

一个星期的奔波，消耗的精神确实不少，今天，“惰性大发”，哈哈，哪里都不想去，只想静静待在家，静静的享受疲惫感，也许一天的充电，能够让我思绪清晰，想清楚未来的路怎么走

10 days after exam

these few days many things had happened...
my big black, brroke down on thursday nite, haizzz, fren told me harddisk got problem d, then i sent it to operation on friday, doctor say it need three days working days to recover, then i hv to wait lo....
these few days, i pass with no comp with me, n think of wan to dl all things again when it recover, more work to do...
n saturday, my bro sick le, then i hv to help in his shop, fever, stay at hospital til tuesday, i hv to take over his shop le, fortunately got ppl help me, if not i wait die le.... everyday wake up at 7am, finish at 7pm, really working le, stil dun hv the mood to go for work, but suddenly like tis.....
n stressful for these few days, hair keep droping non stop, everyone c me oso ask me wat to do, find job onot, erm, i actually not prepared yet to battle in the real world, n now finding hard lo....
ppl keep on asking me go for sale, or insurance, haizzzz, i duno, my head wan burst d, god aaaaa, pls help me aaaaa.....
n now get my big black bec le, everything need to start over, gv me strength to overcum it la...

finish le

en, i finish my studies on 4th may, 1315, i think i can feel joyful when finish exam, but tis time not wat i expected, no cheers, no joyful, juz got the feeling release d, very tired d, start duno when, everytime struggle for exam, for studies, most of my lifes is related to studies, other things din think too much, pity hor??? start from now onwards, i wan to think of others things d, my future, wat wil i b in one month time?? no idea, dun wan ask me wat i aim for now, dun wan ask me wat i wan to do, n dun wan ask me wat job i prefer, i can oni tel u i duno, let me got time to arrange my life future, when it is ready, i wil tel...