9-11, '09

1st, prays for those lost their life in the incident, hope they r fine

2nd, bapi birthday to my game partner, yang, hehe, realised when saw his msn

3rd, pray for my or@nji, today nearly crash him,

4th, hope my dasao grandma will hv a peace life in other world

5th, hope i can hv more energy to do more things

6th, always need more sleep time in the morning

7th, reserve when needed..

31st Aug '09

merdeka day= independent day= public holiday, but not a holiday for me..... since bro shop got open half day for tmr, i hv to go to help him..... haizzzz really a pity life...

still rmb last yr merdeka days, i hv to work oso.... work at shogun last time, really many ppl, busy till faint, erm, tis yr.. mostly same gua.... haha

now i am mad in working, everyday oso work, i duno where my limit will go, haizzz, duno wan hv tis kind of life till when, juz know tmr is a new day of life begin, hv to busy oso, sometime i wan sleep gud gud oso cant, wan sleep late a bit oso no time, nite life oso important for me, gaming is a must, so everyday i hv to find time to rest..... everyday facing monitor n fall asleep.... everyday driving car will think y i wan repeat my life like tat, but everytime i oso fail to find an idea to escape from tis kind of life... sometimes will think too further, fortunately for the radio, myfm, really glad to hv it, will bring hapiness to me..

你不是真正的快乐, mayday song, really mean deep to me, now my life really match tis song, got many picture whenever the song is played..... then the road in front is blur~~~~~~

waiting for the time cuming, waiting for the chance cuming, i m not tat one who is great tat catching the opportunity, i m not tat desire, i need a reason to fight with, i m waiting the reason, i m discover the reason.......

tmr, i wil attend interview in kl oso, i din apply leave, but wil ask for emergency leave, now still thinking the reason for the leave, haizzz, lie in my current company need many energy, its true tat u need 10 lieas to cover one lie, n the lies will never end.

talk os my current company, juz scare scare, office politic, aunty world, mark my word, "aunty", a simple name but very dangerous, news from tis department can spread to whole office in one morning, although the company oni hv double storey, but they like to talk rubbish inside the phone, i really wonder if there hv time to talk, i everyday busy till mad d, oni lunch time can hv a breath, or mayb i m too noob in getting update news, haizzz, however, tats not my business, i juz wan to get my work done, n hope i m not the main character tat they discuss with, womens' war, really scary...........

world, c u tmr..

my convo

had my convo ytd, thx to everyone, thx to my family, thx to my fren, thx to the god...

going to kl ytd, bring my mum n dad, straight go to my bro house there, then juz get to UM, everything is jz gud but the timing no gud, haha, actually wan meet with cmate at 1pm to take photo de, but i late jor, juz can get there around 120pm, straight park my car le n rush to um2009 there, when i get there, cmate help me to wear my harry potter shirt, then everything juz smooth, haha, thx to them, then v queue up at bp there, wait to get into the hall.... then v at dtc le, saw my mum n dad get into the hall oso, wait the ceremony proceed lo, when my turn get onto the stage, really nervous, wooooo, i think i can calm down, but cant, get the scroll from the ppl, the few second is juz like pass very slow, haha... i duno chyi help me write wat at the screen there, wait i get the photo 1st.... then get a news that outside raining heavily, haizzz me n fren v feel very pity.... but then v juz enjoy the ceremony in dtc, last time in dtc le(mostly)^^...but when v get outside the hall, the rain juz stop, really thanks to "laotianye", haha.... bro n dasao gv me flower n 2nd bro gv me winnie the pool, haha, feel sweet.... n find my coursemates to take photo, after that around 6pm, the rain start again, then go home loh, hving dinner with my family, then end one long day..... thx to my parents, let them wait so long in the hall, wait me take photo oso, thx to my big bro, be my camera man, dasao, put make some make up for me, 2nd bro din cum, but courier a bear bear for me, thx to all my frens, wishes, blessing, present, luv u all, muackssssssssss

financial assistant

today is my 2nd day of work, work at sbn, juz one word, tired~~~

talking about ytd 1st, ytd, i got ntg to do for the whole day except helping the secretary to do some filling n read some text to my boss, coz they stil duno wan put me where n ask me help here n there 1st lo....

the company is quite big, hq got around 100 ppl working gua, din go count one by one, but they told me, include all the factory n staff, around 2000 ppl, erm... mayb mostly is foreign worker gua, dun got interest in it...

the company is doing rubber, manufacturing n process rubber, today human resource ppl ask me to go help at financial department, n my post is financial assistant, due to the contract is p&c, i din upload it here la....

financial department, one manager, one asst manager, three worker n me, sum up all is 6 ppl, since got one staff will leave in the end of this month, then bcum 5.. now, can u imagine the work volume v hv??? wan to do all the things for major 4 company, n wat i can say is, the company financial problem quite serious, erm, my meaning is they hv to wait money paid then just can pay to others, i think mayb is they cant collect the money in time, but tats not our problem, those is marketing or account dept, our major problem is, v hv to find money to pay for supplier, find money means find where the account got money n transfer n pay 1st, just busy.....

start work is busy, check tis check tat, before lunch then quite ok a bit, after lunch, busy again, find money check where got money, before leave, can fb d, haha, crazy day...

today leanred many things..... but my head bcum bigger d, wan rmb quite a lot of things oso, but now at home mostly cant rmb le, haha, tmr go die lo.....

meet my secondary sch mate there oso, v both really happy, long time din c le, but meet at here, she is training til nov, n both of us hv a taught, cant trust fully to anyone in the company, juz b careful lo, office politic ma.........

八月了

明天，我就要上班了，office工，但是我现在在后悔着，因为对这间公司没有什么好感，那天interview过后，就决定请我，哎，怎么芙蓉的公司都一下就做决定，一时反应不过来，就这样了，哈哈，意思就明天去上班，但是现在的心情完全没有兴奋，只有想着要如何拒绝，哎，还没有开始做工就有想逃得感觉，要死的我……应该是公司的感觉，应该怎样说，人选我，我选人，可能这是定律吧，现在超希望拿到prudential的offer,那天那个经理超级好，也跟他谈了很多，哎，人通常是会比较的，我也不例外，觉得在芙蓉这边没有什么学习机会给我，公司给我的感觉，就是要绑死你一世人的感觉，哎呀，明天去看看吧……期待prudential，两个星期……

顺其自然

应该努力的改变，还是要静观其变？

面包与爱情，你如何选？

鱼与熊掌，有如何呢？

世界没有两全其美的东西

只有残酷的现实

乘着还有自由的空间

享受顺其自然的感觉吧

不同的滋味

短短的几天，让我体会天堂与地狱的感觉，我不喜欢这样子，平淡一点可以吗？正常一点也不失为过。即将要开工了，希望我会适应环境工作，但是还是有点不甘心，星期五，我最后的希望，请保佑我，也不想再驾车途中脚抽痉了，这滋味一点都不好受，需要停在一边休息，没有经验的我，害怕极了，还好休息后还能驾，哈哈，当时觉得就世界末日……保险，怎样的行业？起码被叫了十多次，也拒绝了不少，这次我能够吗？去新加坡会是怎样的感觉？矛盾中，毕业典礼要想，未来的路更要想，生活也要想，突然之间多了好多东西，肩上永远有一定的重量，也许这就叫担子，我应该要努力把它撑起来……